Surgery is tomorrow. I spent the day running errands...last minute things. I was told I would want to use button down shirts and pajamas for the first few weeks post surgery. I managed to fit in a manicure and pedicure as well!! (which is a treat I give myself a couple of times a year!) Went to la Madeleine's with Sue for an early supper. Overall it was a very enjoyable day of shopping and pampering!!
Tomorrow will begin for me at 4 am!! Leave here at 5 to get to Baylor by 6. Will receive an injection into my lymph nodes. Then we will go to Mary Shiels hospital where the surgery will take place. I am doing fine with all of this. Surrounded by His peace. It really does pass understanding. I feel enveloped by Him. I know I'm not too far into this journey, but already the things I'm learning and experiencing about God are so worth it all. I don't know what it is about suffering or trials or anything that rocks your world...that enables you to go deeper in the Lord in a way that you just don't otherwise. I was just reading in my Streams in the Desert devotional and yesterday's reading was so good. Psalm 66:12 "We went through fire and through water: But thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place." The devotional talked about the rest and peace that can be attained through God when we press through conflict in our lives. I relate. I look at circumstances in our life right now and on the other hand I look at the peace of God we are experiencing in the midst of the circumstances. God amazes me.
I hope what I'm about to share isn't too personal!! I'm about to lose my breasts....... So far, I am okay about that. At this point in my life I am very comfortable in my skin. At the risk of sounding cliche-ish...I'm more than my breasts!! Scott has been so wonderfully supportive, which is no surprise to me...he is just that way. I was saddened by the stories I've heard from The Bridge about some husbands who threatened to leave their wives if they had a mastectomy....I can't imagine that. Anyway, I said "so far I'm okay about that" because I realize the first time I see myself after surgery, I may experience grief. Or a couple of weeks from now it may hit me. If so, I'll go with it...after all it is part of my body that will be gone. But I don't want to stay there. I'm looking forward to continuing on in this journey. After all, when you're on a journey you don't stop and put down roots until the journey is completed. I'm looking forward to experiencing deeper insights into God, deeper trust and love.
I want to thank everyone for their prayers. I really believe one reason I'm doing so well is due to the prayers of so many. We'll update tomorrow on facebook. As of now, I plan on updating this blog sometime on Friday.