Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Surgery is tomorrow. I spent the day running errands...last minute things. I was told I would want to use button down shirts and pajamas for the first few weeks post surgery. I managed to fit in a manicure and pedicure as well!! (which is a treat I give myself a couple of times a year!) Went to la Madeleine's with Sue for an early supper. Overall it was a very enjoyable day of shopping and pampering!!

Tomorrow will begin for me at 4 am!! Leave here at 5 to get to Baylor by 6. Will receive an injection into my lymph nodes. Then we will go to Mary Shiels hospital where the surgery will take place. I am doing fine with all of this. Surrounded by His peace. It really does pass understanding. I feel enveloped by Him. I know I'm not too far into this journey, but already the things I'm learning and experiencing about God are so worth it all. I don't know what it is about suffering or trials or anything that rocks your world...that enables you to go deeper in the Lord in a way that you just don't otherwise. I was just reading in my Streams in the Desert devotional and yesterday's reading was so good. Psalm 66:12 "We went through fire and through water: But thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place." The devotional talked about the rest and peace that can be attained through God when we press through conflict in our lives. I relate. I look at circumstances in our life right now and on the other hand I look at the peace of God we are experiencing in the midst of the circumstances. God amazes me.

I hope what I'm about to share isn't too personal!! I'm about to lose my breasts....... So far, I am okay about that. At this point in my life I am very comfortable in my skin. At the risk of sounding cliche-ish...I'm more than my breasts!! Scott has been so wonderfully supportive, which is no surprise to me...he is just that way. I was saddened by the stories I've heard from The Bridge about some husbands who threatened to leave their wives if they had a mastectomy....I can't imagine that. Anyway, I said "so far I'm okay about that" because I realize the first time I see myself after surgery, I may experience grief. Or a couple of weeks from now it may hit me. If so, I'll go with it...after all it is part of my body that will be gone. But I don't want to stay there. I'm looking forward to continuing on in this journey. After all, when you're on a journey you don't stop and put down roots until the journey is completed. I'm looking forward to experiencing deeper insights into God, deeper trust and love.

I want to thank everyone for their prayers. I really believe one reason I'm doing so well is due to the prayers of so many. We'll update tomorrow on facebook. As of now, I plan on updating this blog sometime on Friday.

2 comments:

  1. Love You, Girl... I Know that You Feel Mine and Everyone's Prayers Lifting You Up... I wish that I could help take Care of You, but I won't be far, Buddy.... :)

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  2. Good Morning, My Friend and Sister.... This Is You and The Lords Day..... Love..... Pray..... Love ...... Pray..... Remember, Nothing can beat the Blood of Jesus, which Runs Through Your Body.... :)

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